Thanksgiving

Ashlynn had treatment on Monday she is doing really well I actually took a video of her getting the treatment. Her nurses have been really wonderful Amy is the one I remember she is amazing and the front office staff is also amazing Sandra is the receptionist she is so understanding. I am grateful for all of the positive people in my life and I appreciate them for all the effort they are giving everyday God bless everyone. I also was informed by my releif society President Sonya she is going to try and have everyone help me for Christmas. That is also someone I am truly grateful for is the people in my Ward they really reach out to those who need it and they do it because they love people truly love with all there heart. God bless them as well, I love you for caring I truly do....

I am going to also blog about the others in my family and how they are effected by Ashlynns sickness

Thanksgiving really turned out well we had a quiet dinner at home and lots of pies...I am glad that I met Charles He really is a great guy and my life is really complete with him. I went to church last weekend. They had mentioned that life is so different when you are alone. I admit it has been so difficult when i was doing this by myself. we still have struggles I do not know sometimes how we continue to survive but we do. Everyday is a new challenge I just think that I have it all figured out then life hands me a curve ball.

I get this call yesterday and a voice says Hi this is Ryan from The Department of Family Services, I need you to return my call as soon as possible about some charges that could be pending against you. Well naturally I am completely shocked and the first thing I do is call him back. He says someone has called them to report that my son George (who is 5 years old) has claimed that he is being punched in the face by someone in the house. Naturally I was shocked and said that he is more than welcome to come into my house to investigate.

This guy arrives this morning at 8:00 am and I completely forgot he was coming. He came in and said he wanted to talk to all the kids so he took each one and went upstairs and talked to them. I guess whomever turned me in said that Charles punches him in the face. Well I have to laugh because Charles is the sweetest man in the world and would never even lay a pinky on my kids. My kids love him so much and they have said the only time Charles has ever touched him is when He tickles them. George said "Charles tickles me and it makes me mad." Well the guy gets ready to leave and says to me "oh and another thing they also said he never eats, bathes and wheres the same clothes for weeks". So I look at him and said well I have prob 3 pair of pants for him and he wears a different shirt everyday, but school is right after lunch we are always rushing him to eat and he may spill things on himself...Not to mention he does rush to the bus someimes with his lunch in his hands so he may not get his face washed before going to school. So the guy says well I am closing the case and he leaves.

The meantime I am just like thinking I know his teacher is the one that said something she first of all has had the hardest time with George from day one she tried to kick him out of Kindergarten; she has told me time and time again how frustrated she is with him. I have tried to work with George he is very difficult and hard headed. He is a really negative boy who seems to always say WO is me attitude. He is also very literal he talks about the devil alot (his dad is always talking about the devil to him even though I insist he not). Just Sunday he was telling me that the whole valley is going to be flooded I looked at him and said George it is not and he insisted he saw it on the news. I dont know maybe when his dad took him he saw it on TV somewhere.
You know alot of times when Cancer happens it affects the entire family, not just the sick ones but the healthy ones to. George used to cry all the time saying that Ashlynn gets all the attention and gifts. I think his Physycee is effected more than I think. So I am going about my day today and I just start getting so upset my blood starts to boil and I just thought I need to talk to someone so I called my sister Sherrie I called her she always has good advice for me. But when I start to tell her I realize that I am more upset than I knew; I started to cry and she is like Joanna if that person knew you she would know better how great of a mother you truly are. Hell when you were a single mother you never gave up on your kids and you worked fulltime lived in homeless shelters to keep them together. You are truly the bravest, most amazing mother that has ever lived if anything you should be given an award for the best mother of this century, you are great. I cried and cried because being a mother is what I pride myself in and for someone to have that perspective of me really did hurt more than I ever knew.
So I am sitting here just amazed that there are thousands and thousands of children being abused mentally, Physically and emotionally but someone out there decided to turn me in a mother who has never given up on her kids. Who has loved her kids to death, has had a child with cancer (helping her baby with all her daily pain and trauma) has strived to be better everyday.
But Whoever this person is decided to choose me to turn me in wow it is really sick and wrong. You know that I have been told by my family and friends that they cannot believe how amazing I am and how truly lucky my kids are to have me as a mom. I guess I will remember those words for now on.....So whoever you are If you knew me you would only wish you could be as great as I am I was a single mother with 6 children living in a Homeless Shelter and had an ex husband who abused me everyday he had chance...I have been through hell and back and if anything I should be worshiped for my success.